Sunday, January 31, 2010

Sunday...should spell peace, joy, and rest

Sunday. The start of a new week, new opportunites to correct last weeks mistakes and a day spent reflecting on the goodness of my redeemer. If all this is true, why do my Sundays seem to come up  sour. I've been thinking about this for quite a while and can't seem to come up with an answer. Although, I 've narrowed it down a few possibilites. It's gonna sound like I am beating a dead horse, but this is my avenue to get it off my chest. Once again I find myself frustrated with almost everything. Even though I promised myself that I would try harder this yell to reign in the emotions and set them aside when dealing with the kids, I am failing miserably at this task. The son that I mentioned in the last post struck again bright and early this morning ( presenting at the breakfast table dressed in his brothers discared attire from yesterday ) proudly exclaiming that he was ready for church. : (  I wanted to ask him have'nt we been thru this EVERY Sunday for the last four years? Instead I yelled at him in the meanest voice I could muster thru clenched teeth to find something else.  Three hours later a quick trip to the grocery store turned into a 3 1/2 hr ordeal because the van would not start when I came out of the store.  : (  Lastly my oldest daughter in a CONTINUED effort to fit in allowed a girl  at church to write all over her arm and saw nothing wrong with it!!!!!!!! My first thought was "What the heck???" I wanted to tell her that she will never fit in and she might as well quit trying. That sometimes pre teen girls are catty, messy and should be avoided. Be independent and blaze your own trail. But instead of saying that I proceeded to yell at her how ignorant that was and that I have had enough.  I can't even figure out what edict to lay down on that front so I ordered her to her room while I thought about it. Next Sunday , I''m gonna set out to find some peace, joy, and rest....well I'm gonna try too....AGAIN.

5 comments:

Teresha@Marlie and Me said...

came by after seeing that you recently joined my blog! you have such a beautiful family. I loved this post because it speaks volumes about our humanity. we all make mistakes, it's what we learn from those mistakes that separates those who become enlightened from those who are doomed to repeat them. the strength is in you. {{{hugs}}}

Darcel said...

We have all been there.
There are some days where I lock myself in the bathroom for a few minutes.
It sounds like you need a break. What do you do for ME time?

Someone told me not to think of our days as good and bad, but to think of them as moments. It has been much easier for me to get through that way.
If I have a bad moment, I apologize and we move on to the next moment.

Here's to making better moments :)

CandidCrystal said...

I saw you stopped by my blog, so I had to come and check you out. I'm so glad I did! We're on similar journeys, and it's always good to take a walk with a like minded friend.

*Holding out hand*

Shall we?

Ottavia said...

OMG! I still cannot get passed your bio...7 children...fantastic work Mom!

Mackey said...

Awww. Thanks gurs for your support and friendship on this journey with me. i am inspired by you guys to push forward and perfect the art of my personal blog. Keep the comments coming. Blessings- ;)