Friday, October 9, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
He knows my name...what an AMAZING thought. Just when I was about to slide into a sick, dry, depressed state, I was reminded that though the world may say otherwise; my heavenly father is all knowing,all powerful and above all else ,ALMIGHTY. At the end of the day he knows and cares about me. Little old broken, struggling, imperfect me. And today, that thought has been enough to encourage me to keep pushing.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
So, my week gto off to a sucky start. : ( One of my twins boys decided (we still have not figured out WHY) to take a brick to the windows of our neighbors car. Not one window, not two windows, but three windows. Yep, you read that right. Three (3) count'em with me now 1,2,3; the front windshield, driver and passenger side windows. I completely fell apart when I saw the damage. Hopefully I can figure out how to post pics soon so you can share in my misery. After that, I'm afraid to face the rest of the week.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I feel like I'm living someone Else's life. I find myself wondering if I come off as a judgemental, self-absorbed, holier-than-thou, washed up Prom Queen who never really relinquished the sash and tiara. Goodness, I certainly hope not. Each day it seems that I am reminded not to compare myself to others , but to strive for a deeper, more committed relationship with the savior. And then ....it happens, someone will not so subtly tell me of some occurrence that surely points to said persons lack of salvation,they can't possibly be saved cause they listen to secular music, have tattoos, have different political affiliations,etc....and the LIST goes on and on and on for DAYS!!!!!! I want to yell from the rooftops , PEOPLE WAKE UP, IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU AND YOUR BELIEFS/VALUES!!!!! We as people/nation need to get back to reading the original rule book and employing those rules. not the ones we have learned, and tweaked to fit the culture of the day.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
What a long, tear filled, strange, trip raising a "tweenage" girl is. I am SO convinced that it will be no small miracle for me to survive this journey with my sanity, hair and good working nerves. I have to remind myself almost every hour that I am not walking this walk alone. The Lord does not give you anymore more than you can bear right???? Sometimes I question this idea too. I was so not designed to be a girls mom. Since I 'm not a "girly-girl" , I often come up empty when it comes to relating to my girl who is now a converted tom boy. She used to ENJOY dirt and bugs and all things dirty. Now she is prim and proper and discovering that creature called BOYS!!!! Imagine my angst ; ) ! Yes, this will be a long , tear filled, strange, trip trip. I guess I have to just buckle up and hang on for the ride. : )
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Frustration seems to be the feeling of the month. It seems that I am met with that same nagging emotion at very turn. I must be swimming in circles that are too big, too different, too rich and the list goes on,and on and on. I'm having a real hard time connecting lately, Is this the sweet savior telling me to turn around and pull myself and the kids out of everything. I kid you not, I want to VOMIT a great deal lately. I just may blow my top if one more person tries to sway me to their side!!!!!!!! Just leave me be! I have plenty enough drama, and issues of my own. Please don't force your judgement upon me too! Recluse living sounds really good right now to me.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
I got up this morning thinking I totally had it all together.....only to find out this morning was going to be like most other Sunday mornings at our house. Wake up, tend to my personal needs, wake up kiddos and shuffle them along getting ready for church. Since church is a 30 to 45 min drive we need to leave home a full hour before Sunday school starts. At 9:15 I was still not dressed and looking for belts and shoes that were supposed to be found last night. So here I sit at the compute angry, and more that a little bit frustrated at my failed attempt to have the entire family ready and out the door on time AGAIN. Awww man, another crazzy day in the life of a large and somewhat disorganized family. Despite my best laid plans.